Category Archives: A Healthy New Me!

Changes……I’m Different!

Nothing in my life is as it was. Everything is so different now. I can’t even  put into words what I have been through. None of this is what I asked for, but all of it is what I needed.

I knew that I needed to make changes in my life. I just didn’t know how to go about it. Sometimes things happen outside of your control that force you to take a look at your life, and I could either stay in that same pace or I could make moves and change my life.

I chose to make moves. To become responsible for my life, and to make things happen instead of let things happen to me in my life. It has not been easy, I have had days that wanted to throw in the towel, but it has been worth it.

Each time I thought I wasn’t going to make it I did. Each time I thought it would be too much it wasn’t.  Each time I questioned my choices, I thought about where I was and where I am now and how I fought to get here and I make the choice to get up and keep fighting for my happiness.

Relationships that I had pushed to the side have saved me in ways that I could not even imagine. For that I am grateful.  I have made some mistakes, but I have become stronger, wiser, independent and so much more.

I have found me. I was lost. I was letting things happen to me that I knew I didn’t deserve. I was not walking in God’s will for me. Once I stopped fighting, once I stopped trying to hold on to all the things that were hurting me hoping they would change, I found me.

Doors opened, my life changed,  a whole new world opened up for me. Nothing in my life is the same, I am definitely not where I thought I would be in this stage of game. I definitely did not think that some things would end the way they did, but  I’m am extremely  grateful for everything that I have been through. I am  extremely grateful for my life.

My life is not easy, but it is good!

From me to you! With Love, JJ

21 Days!

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I have a very bad habit of trying to do things on my own.  Of thinking that my way is better than God’s way.  That it was okay to kinda of put my trust in God, and then try to figure the rest out on my own. Well folks, I have learned that without complete faith in Christ, I am nothing. That I can’t use God as my safety net in times of trouble, but that I actually have to trust in him at all times.

They say it takes 21 days to form new habits.

To show me that there was nobody greater than him, God had to put me through the paces.  People when I say the past month has literally been hell, I speak truth!  There is really no other way to describe it.  I thought I had reached rock bottom, but I found out there is always a new low when you don’t believe, when you put you before him, when you don’t give it all over to Christ, and put you and your family in his hands. Now don’t get me wrong, I never stopped believing and trusting in Christ, but I had pushed him to the perimeter of my life.  I stopped depending on him, and focusing on him and what he had in store for my life.  I became complacent and comfortable in the spot that I was in, thinking we had made it through the storm. Yes, it was rocky, but the boat didn’t tip, we didn’t sink so obviously we were okay.  I believed that we could handle things on our own, that nobody needed to know what we were going through.  Things were spinning out of control, but I couldn’t see it. I could not see that we needed help. Because asking for help meant that you had failed.  So in typically Jacquie behavior, I shut down and in the process I shut people out.  I kept the people who meant the most to me in the dark, not wanting them to judge me, forgetting that they were actually on my side.

They say it takes 21 days to form a habit!

It took hitting the other side of that rock to realize that not only is My God a good outstanding and amazing type of God, but my family is my solid rock and my foundation, that my friends, the ones that have stood by me and shown me what real friendship is, are completely amazing. That my enemies, come in all shapes and sizes, and they are now my footstools. That Satan will keep throwing mess at me and my family but, in return for my faith HE will NEVER leave me alone, that even in my darkest moment, HE is the light at the end of each hallway, framing the doors, opening my heart to what’s in store for me.

They say it takes 21 days to form a habit.

It has taken a world of hurt and disappointment to show me that my family is strong enough to withstand anything life throws at us, if we stay focused on what God has for us. That we have to have each others back.  That having money helps, but it is not going to fix all of my problems.  That if you don’t actually deal with your issues they will keep coming back, and they will keep knocking you down.  That people are going to come into your life and try to destroy you, but just as quickly as they come they will definitely go!  That not everybody is your friend, or has your best interest at heart.  That he will show you who you need in your life!  That everything is not for me and mine and that what mattered the most was right in front of me all along.  That life is hard, but it is a whole lot harder without HIM!

They say it takes 21 days to form a habit.

So I making some changes in my life!  I bringing some new habits into my life.  Praise, gratefulness, prayer, and thankfulness just to name a few.  I am praising God for keeping me, grateful to God for blessing me, praying to God everyday to guide me and remove what is wrong from my life, and thanking God for saving me.  For providing me with new opportunities, for giving me a chance to follow my dreams.  For showing me that I am not in this thing called life alone!

They say it takes 21 days to form a habit!

I Look To You

So this song right here has been my saving grace and my salvation as a go through my own personal storm.   No lie from the moment I received this CD this song has been on constant rotation in my car.  In my moments of weakness, when I feel alone, I let it out and do my best to let God handle me. I am a continual work in progress, and I am so thankful that I can lay my burdens down and his feet, with no judgement.  That I can look to him. Enjoy!

I Look to YouWhitney Houston Featuring R. Kelly from the I Will Always Love You The Best of Whitney Houston CD

As I lay me down, Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause, After giving it my all

Winter storms have come, And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through, Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you, I look to you
After all my strength is gone,  In you I can be strong

I look to you, I look to you
And when melodies are gone, In you I hear a song, I look to you

About to lose my breath, There’s no more fighting left
Sinking to rise no more, Searching for that open door

And every road that I’ve taken, Led to my regret
I don’t know if I’m gonna make it, Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you, I look to you
And when all my strength is gone, In you I can be strong

I look to you, I look to you
And when melodies are gone, In you I hear a song, I look to you

Ballet Body & The Supreme Combo Workout

Ballet Workout 1

Today’s workout was brought to us by Jennifer Galardi and SportsKool. Ballet Workout 1 is a strength and stretch workout all in on featuring ballet and core strengthening.

First and foremost any workout that starts with a statement saying that they are not liable for any injury caused during the viewing of this program is a clear and concise warning so you should take heed people!  Listen to what they are saying and do something different.   Or  you can be like me and forge ahead, ignoring the warning, act like you are superwoman and end up regretting your choices, again!   Second, I know that it has been YEARS quite possible DECADES since I did any type of ballet, but this right here is something completely different I have never seen before!

I have never done ballet like this before. I thought ballet was all about slow and controlled movements. Apparently not anymore! There was a lot of fast moves, and piles (also known as squats people, don’t let em fool you!) A bunch of quick movements and stretching all rolled into a 15 minute workout!

Ballet Floor Bar

Taking your workout to the floor to work your muscles from a different position. Also known as new ways to torture your body disguised as exercise.  This 13 minute workout per Jennifer, was taking ballet moves you would normally do on the ballet bar and doing them on the floor.  This included but was not limited to her version of crunches and moves for your hips and legs.

Again these are not moves I did when I was in ballet and if this is what they actually do now, then I got out at a good time (ballet drop out at 9) cause I would have had to hurt somebody.

The Supreme Combo

Robert Jones led me through almost half of the Supreme Combo workout before I called it quits and stomped away!  Yes, I can admit that I got mad (and winded, and dizzy beyond belief) and stomped away from this workout!  This is a 37 minute full body workout.  They asked if I was finally ready for a complete body shape up. ( I said yes, but my body said NO!) A total body sculpting workout while boosting my cardio filled with intense combos and recovery cool downs that would be sure to push my limits! (Word to Big Bird, cause I went beyond my limits and bout passed out!)

I do believe that this workout was designed for people who were trying to make a basketball team.  The part I did was full of jumping jack and squat combos, burpees and bicycle combos and recovery time filled with upper body and lower body combos. (Excuse me but I can’t recover if I am still working out!) That ish was crazy! When Robert (yes I can call you by your first name when you are trying to kill me!) went in for the second round of burpee combo’s I dropped my weight and stomped away! (Sigh)

I knew the whole workout was going down hill when I started paying more attention to the cobwebs I wanted to get rid of, then the man on the tv screen leading the workout!  I am disappointed that I was not able to make it all the way through, but Robert I am coming back and even if I end up flat on my back seeing stars and begging for mercy I am going to make it all that way to the end of the Supreme Combo Workout!

Eventually……..

(All these workouts were completed and/or attempted last week!)

20 Minute Workouts I Have Tried

and then have tossed to the side……. (y’all like how I made that rhyme?)  I picked workouts that focused on the area of my body that I have the most issues with (midsection how I dislike thee, let me count the ways) and tone up my assets in the process.

Bollywood Booty 2 w/ Hemalayaa

I joined Hemalayaa as she led a booty shaping workout to some infectious Bollywood beats! It was fun and everything but they kept breaking for commercials (really people commercials?) and to sell her DVD, so I kinda lost my stride and had to keep going back to find it over and over again.  (This is not something I will be trying again)

Pilates Hip Burner w/ Michele Rogers

We started with the Pilates 100. (These are crunches people and these suckers hurt!  I  was not ready!)  This was 15 minutes workout for people already familiar with the basic Pilates moves (it should come as no surprise to anyone that I am not familiar with any of this!) and want an added challenge for  your abs and hips (I should not have taken the challenge people…. I should have walked away). This workout has not been taken off the list completely but it is at the bottom of my try again list! (I felt those crunches for a WEEK after this workout!)

Hip Shakers with Veena Bidasha

This was a belly dance workout for beginners.  Otherwise known as Belly Dancing for Dummies (mainly me). It included muscle isolations exercises to tone the hips, buns and thighs.   They should have another level before beginners though, because belly dancing is for the highly skilled people with rhythm. (Not regular rhythm, a different kind that I apparently do not have!) Another workout that I am WILLING to try again, and quite possibly soon.

So people I have been working out…. not consistently and never the same thing twice, but I am trying.

Tomorrow, I try again.

It’s all about not giving up right?

At least that’s what I keep telling myself.

My Body Does Not Like Me Right Now!

So yeah, I pretty much stink up the joint when it comes to exercising on a regular consistent basis.  I get all amped up and I say to myself,” Self you got this! Today is the day, you are going for the gold! You are going to go out there and CONQUER the world of exercise! Ain’t No Stopping Us Now! It’s all you baby! YEAH! Let’s get it!” Then me and myself are good for a little while, then something happens, or I get caught up in life and meaningless things that really do not matter and then I miss a day.  Then one day becomes two and two days turns into weeks…. and well you get my drift……sigh!

Yesterday, I got up and took the kids to school and instead of coming right up and getting caught in my feelings I drove to a nearby hospital and walked the bike trail.  It felt good, but it also hurt. 20 minutes of fast walking on concrete is no joke on the calf muscles. (My body was not happy!)  Today, I got up and I dropped the kids off at school and instead of coming home and complaining (to myself ) about how out of shape I am, and whining (again to myself) about how I wish this weight would just go away, I walked to my TV and completed the Cardio Kickboxing workout with Jill Coleman on FitTV.  A workout that was full of cardio (jumping jacks and punches) and Interval Training (squats & high knees) packed into 20 minutes.  (My body sooooooo does not like me right now!)

Apparently long breaks with no real physical activity beyond chasing after my kids is no good for this girl right here.  My knees are screaming out in protest and my muscles in my arms and legs would so like to slap the mess out of me right now.  So I am done making promises with mouth that my body can’t keep (Like running with no plan) and I am taking it day by day. I can no longer give me and my complaining self anymore breaks and I plan on working out every day for a least 20 minutes a day (that is all I can take right now) so my old body does not throw in the towel and completely shut down on me.

Cause honestly, I really need my body to like me again……

Out of Sorts

Lately I have been out of sorts. Down in the dumps. Wallowing in self-pity. Crying over spilled milk (literally).  Fighting mad. overwhelmed and underappreciated.  Angry for no reason.  And running around like a chicken with her head cut off. Which makes me look like a lunatic.

My anthem for the past weeks, no months has been f**k the world, don’t ask me for ish! (but only in my head…..cause I do realize the inappropriateness of saying that to my kids).

Nothing  is going right and I have had no desire to do anything expect lie in bed and eat my way through everything.(chocolate filled Oreos have been my source of comfort) I snap at everything and everyone ( even my little babies…..sometimes they snap back….totally my fault)

All I want to do is sleep, but I can’t. So I lay awake at night with my mind racing in a million different directions. I feel like i have no control over anything in my life.  Everything  has been irritating which in turns make irritable. Which makes me snap, which makes me sad and weepy, which makes me look like a lunatic.

I have not been able to write anything because everything comes out sounding like I’m a lunatic. Which might not be far from the truth since I’m feeling kind of crazed. My poor babies, I have been short with them. I never want to hear the never-ending stories but lately it seems if they even breathe wrong mama goes off! (which they so don’t care about because they keep right on talking)!

I have missed a month of Sundays so my soul has been in need of a refill.  I have not been taking care of me at all. I have been just getting by. No exercise, no communicating effectively.  Which is clearly not working, because I have been behaving like a lunatic.  There is a theme here and it is me feeling out-of-place and sad and me behaving like a lunatic!  Something has got to give, quick fast in a hurry before I slip off of the side of the mountain and I can’t find my way back to my happy place!

Something has got to change!

So I ended my self-imposed ban on going to church (there really was no reason for me not to go except for straight up laziness) and got my heart back in the right place. (shouts out to Main Baptist Church where Christ is the Main thing!) And last Monday after I dropped the babies off at school, despite my mind and my body telling me to head straight to my house where I could find  nearest bag of Lays Potato Chips chased with a Dove Chocolate Bar AND some Hawaiian Punch. I went to the gym and I completed by first day of week three for the Couch to 5k. My body protested every step of the way and I had to stop more than once because my legs were in complete protest and were doing their very best to stop me. I finished and for the first time in a very, very long time I felt better. (It didn’t even bother me that there were people 3x my age lapping me and stopping to ask if I was okay!)

Now I am the first to admit that it takes me two weeks to finish one (especially when I don’t have the proper footwear) but I will not stop.  I have to do better for me. I refuse to spend the rest of my days unhappy with me, and then disappointed that I never did anything about.

I want to be happy….no I  need to be happy. I have kids to raise, a husband to love, and a family that extends far and wide that needs my special kind of love and happiness! (they all know that they would be so lost without me!)

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